Just a quick post to share that today, for the first time, when I thought about getting pregnant again I felt hope and excitement first before paralyzing fear.
It doesn't mean the feeling will last (although I hope it will), as I have found that grief=a severe mood swing problem. I can go from sad, okay (I hesitate to say happy at this point), guilty, scared, etc in minutes. As some might tell you (eh hem...I know you are reading) I always could "turn on a dime" anyway.
The love and light of Emma will always be present, but here's hoping for some rainbows in the future too.
P.S. A living baby after a stillbirth is called a Rainbow Baby...a rainbow after the storm